I am 20 years old.

o.o

What do I do now?

They run and climb and play. I sat with them for a few minutes today. They're at a messy age. They know how to use a litter box and eat soft food but they can't seem to do it without getting it on their paws and tracking it around. They're also very noisy eaters. So many little "om-nom"s. They cry for attention when anybody is in the room and they chase each other around. They're also at that age when they can run and play and when they get tired, they just sleep wherever they happen to be. The picture is of Pomegranate (I think) dozing off and almost tipping over.

Tags: kittens cute
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: KnotCast

It rained today. Scattered showers. If it rains all day, the sky pretty much looks the same. If it rains on and off, the sky and clouds shift in color and shades. You get to see a nice mesh of the sun trying to shine through. Sometime, it does penetrate and put a nice glaze over the clouds. I was walking to the furmeet, crossing the street and I saw this tree. I thought it had a nice outline and a great contrast to the sky behind it. And I like that light in that one window.

Also, I finally got the AC reservation sorted. Yay.

Current Mood: cheerful

I must say, Mitzi is probably my favorite cat. But I can't deny how much I like Lexi. Her eyes are cute but they've got a devious demeanor. What adds more to it is that the tips of her fangs stick out just bellow her chops. And if you walk by her and catch a glance, she looks up at you with a bit of wild intensity. And when she plays, she does whatever she can to win the game she feels she is playing.

The best thing about the city is how it looks at night. Glowing and shining across the water. It's not very easy to find a place to take this sort of shot without walking uphill for a while. Luckily, there's a parking garage that's open until 2am on Fridays and Saturdays. There's even an elevator.

I had friends over tonight like I do most Fridays. It was nice. I'd give it a 7/10. I would've liked to play Settlers. It's like my new drug. Might go see kittens tomorrow. I can't remember if I have plans or not.

I can't wake up very easily. I'm dizzy and my eyes hurt and it's so hard to move in such a state. My grandma hates it when I sleep in until 12. She hasn't bothered trying to help me wake up but she continues to remind me that I should be able to wake up. She wants me to go to school this summer. A class or two. She just wants me to get out of the house. I guess I can. I'd rather get a job but I've never been good at finding a job. Or maybe jobs are just harder to find these days. I've still been trying to take photos. I'll continue to post pictures. It's just frustrating when I ask her to try to wake me up when she wants me to wake up, but she won't. Anyway, here's a picture I took the other day at the car wash. It reminds me of why I like water so much and the process of erosion.



The next is a picture of two of my cats. They used to live indoors but when we got two new kittens, they kind of evicted themselves. They're both very handsome cats and they're fairly polite. They mostly just hang out in the yard, enjoying the sun. It's nice to just watch them lay there or wander around.

Current Mood: blah

Sitting on a roof in the next yard over, he surveys the parking lot to watch for intruders. However, the day has been so quiet and the warm sun so relaxing, and he starts to drift off. This often happens. He's been around enough so that intruders know not to cross him. As a result, he tends to laze about the yard and the lot, napping freely. I think he's the most handsome cat.

Current Mood: *semi sniffly-sneezy-coughy*

These trees are so out of place. They stand out so much, but at the same time, they seem to fit in so well to the surrounding befuddlement.

Current Music: Postal Service - Clark Gable

I was out tonight and I've been admiring this building lately. The structure is pretty basic and it has the typical bushes alongside it, but these leafed vines are taking over the base pillars. They almost look like trees in a different form. Thin trunks along the pillars as the roots and branches wrap and coil around. I'm not entirely sure why I chose this shot. I just love it when plants and vegetation take over a manmade structure. It adds so much life and style. Anyway, I'll post again tomorrow (or today, depending). I'm very tired and I need to update my other journal.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Scott Peeples - Chrono Cross Another Inspiration OC ReMix

I love candy. I especially love eating something tiny and adorable. Gummy bears, chocolate bunnies, etc. I hope these catch on. I got them at Trader Joe's. They're gummy penguins but the best part is their belly (Yay, bellies). Each pengy belly is filled with a thick, fruity juice. Similar to Gushers.

Aren't they adorable? You can just nibble on their belly until you get their sweet, bodily fluids. :3

... I love bellies.

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Theme of "E-102r"

Yes, I am a professional badass.

Current Mood: badass

It's the five things meme. If you want me to give you five things, leave a comment.

1. Cute.
I don't really know what to say about this. I've always wanted to be seen as cute. I sometimes try to act cute. But whenever I look at myself in the mirror, I don't see. I think, 'I look alright'. I even get aroused from time to time because I've grown attracted to my own body type. I don't know. I just don't strike myself as the type of person who is cute. The way I decorate and dress myself is to try to look cool and casual. Unless my face radically transforms, all I see is a lacking personality in a tired body. But I still enjoy my life. It's completely worth living once you've met people you enjoy being around and are aware of the possibility of meeting more people like that.

2. Japan.
I found out that a friend of mine has me sorta of pinned down, personality-wise, in three specific things. Japan, homosexuality and card games. I found this very offensive but he just doesn't know me as well as he thinks he knows me and I don't really feel like simply filling him in just yet. So, Japan... I used to watch a lot of anime and one of the things I enjoyed was the language and the voice acting; the way they make the words sound. Anyway, I took a few semesters of Japanese. I love it. The characters as consistent and are just about always pronounced the same. The grammar and sentence structure is very technical and consistent. The problem is just the Kanji. There are so many. I got to go to Japan recently. It's a fantastic place. The city is massive, dense and brimming with wonderful things. I really enjoyed all the little things, too. Mostly shopping. The vending machines are virtually everywhere, dispensing warm or cold cans or bottles of coffee, tea, juice, water and beer. The cheap sushi places have better tasting fish than in the states, but that's a given. The temples scattered so you can stop by for a quick prayer. Shintoism appeals to me quite a bit. And aside from the sushi, you can get just about any kind of food if you look hard enough. Their public transportation is complex yet easy enough to figure out. It's also very fast and timely. Bikes are not locked to racks. They are simply parked, sometimes in a designated area, and the rear wheel is locked in place. The country and nature away from the city is also very beautiful. I was lucky enough to walk around Nikko while it was snowing. I could go on but I'll stop here. I absorbed a lot in the two weeks I was there.

3. Hair.
Why is hair listed? Oh. I got a haircut recently. I quite like it. It's short but long enough to manipulate. I love making it look a bit messy. To vaguely reflect my slobbish personality. I actually like my hair a lot. It's a very dark brown but it looks black. You can only see the brown when enough light shines through the ends of the hairs. And it's thick. I've got nice, thick hair and all I use is shampoo. There's not much for me to say really. I like my hair. Other people seem to like my hair. I usually get it trimmed when it reaches down to the tip of my nose. And I have decent hair for wearing goggles. When I was little, my mom kept my hair short. Practically buzz cut. I did have a little tail in the back, though. Then she stopped getting it cut and I grew it out pretty long. Then I got it cut because I hated dealing with the tangles. Now I probably get it cut about twice a year.

4. Snuggles.
Mmm... Snuggles are one of my favorite things to do. As a self-proclaimed lazy dragon, snuggling is one of the most pleasant ways to spend time with a person. You just sorta lay there, enjoying the warm touch. Body language should take over but when I'm snuggling close to someone, I often find myself constantly thinking about where my hands are and where their hands are. Or their legs. Or where their hands aren't... I guess I'm not very good at just letting my body operate. It's become my nature to try to be as aware as possible, even if I'm enjoying the closeness of another. I don't think I was like this before. Or maybe it's when I'm around new people. Plus, I almost always get aroused when I'm snuggling. And ususally, snuggling is foreplay. I feel like that might be a bad thing. And I haven't had a good snuggle since FC. It's a growing addiction now. But it's not specifically snuggling. I'm lonely. Plain and simple. I used to have what I would call a companion. Someone I could easily spend time with. Someone who would often keep me company. We don't see each other much anymore and the world seems like a much lonelier place. I guess that's why I want so badly to be close to someone. Someone who will keep me company again and distact my mind from its own insanity. Hmm...

5. Dwaggies
Dwaggy. It's sounds so cute that way. I am a chubby, short dragon. I say short because many dragons are larger. Big as a car or house or small hill. I'm about 5'10" when I'm on my hind legs. I don't really have much an anthro description or picture. I'm feral.. for now. I'll post a link to a sketch of myself at the end of this. When I was 15, I had a dream. It's a little hazy but I've successful held onto it in my memory.

There was a village. There was emerging civilization and technology on this world. It may have been Earth at one point in time. The humans were growing in population. Eliminating other threatening species. It was rumored that there was only one dragon left in this world. Hiding and trying to avoid human confrontation. Clinging to it's lonely life. But you know humans. They have to kill it off completely. There were trained hunters with amazing persistence. The dragon was outside of a village where one of the youngest hunters resided. Also among the people of the village, were two regular men who felt the should do what they could to help the unfortunate creature. They found the dragon and they didn't know what to do. The dragon was female, and without many options, decided to mate with the humans. She kept hidden until many eggs were laid. It was a new species; part human, part dragon. The dragon died but her offspring lived on.

That's pretty much the gist of the dream. I like to think that, in some way, I'm one of those offspring. And shortly after that dream, I got into furry, managing to attend AnthroCon 2006 at the age of 16. And I love the fandom. So many interesting people. So many artists. And it's a very social fandom. My favorite part of a furry con is meeting people. But back to dragons. My favorite book series is probably the Inheritance Series. The adventure and magic. The violence and bloodshed. And even a little romance. When I think of dragons, I often imagine flying, firebreathing, magic and biting things. I love fire, and I like wind, but I feel more of a connection to water. Its existence fascinate me. It erodes and runs and flows so freely. It shapes to fit its surroundings. It gets absorbed, and it evaporates. It's in the clouds that float so high, being pushed by the wind. I could go on but my back is getting stiff.
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So there's the meme. Just a couple parts of my personality.

Here's the picture of me: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1317021/

Here's my photo album for my Japan trip: http://photobucket.com/japan_2009
Password: mahballz

It's still not done. I have a LOT of pictures I still need to upload.

I'm gonna try to post something everyday from now on.

Tags: furry, japan, meme
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Bob Dylan - The Times They Are A-Changin'

After a cancelled flight, I am finally in Japan. A day late. No matter. Everything looks awesome. I went out to a delicious sushi dinner. It was kinda fast-foody. Mostly self-serve. Took a few pictures with my new digital camera. Had some sake as well. Yum! It'll be New Years here in about in hour for me. I love being in the future ^..^

I really want a Japanese cell phone. It wouldn't work when I got home but their cell phones are 1000x more awesome than ours. I'm gonna get Pokemon Platinum when I'm here and some much-wanted porn if I can find it. Again, everything is visually stunning. I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and explore the vast city. I'll post pics when I have the time.

That's about all for now.

Tags: japan
Current Mood: excited

Well! I'm going to Japan! Later! X3

Current Mood: excited

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take a picture of yourself right now.
don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair...just take a picture.
post that picture with NO editing.
post these instructions with your picture.



And here are a couple more pictures:





I need to list things I like that begin with the letter H. Hmm... I need to think of more stuff. I'll do it later.

Adios.

Tags: meme, pictures
Current Location: texas
Current Music: Four Tet - Sleep, Eat Food, Have Visions

Goodbye

Would anybody be interested in a party at my house sometime in the near future? Probably on a Friday or Saturday if possible. Please let me know if you're interested.

Tags: birthday
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Paper Planes - M.I.A.

What should I do for my birthday?

Current Mood: contemplative

I don't really feel the need to post here anymore. People probably don't even read this. So, really, nothing is going to change. I enjoy writing in an actual notebook better, anyway.

Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: Same song as last time