It's the five things meme. If you want me to give you five things, leave a comment.
I don't really know what to say about this. I've always wanted to be seen as cute. I sometimes try to act cute. But whenever I look at myself in the mirror, I don't see. I think, 'I look alright'. I even get aroused from time to time because I've grown attracted to my own body type. I don't know. I just don't strike myself as the type of person who is cute. The way I decorate and dress myself is to try to look cool and casual. Unless my face radically transforms, all I see is a lacking personality in a tired body. But I still enjoy my life. It's completely worth living once you've met people you enjoy being around and are aware of the possibility of meeting more people like that.
I found out that a friend of mine has me sorta of pinned down, personality-wise, in three specific things. Japan, homosexuality and card games. I found this very offensive but he just doesn't know me as well as he thinks he knows me and I don't really feel like simply filling him in just yet. So, Japan... I used to watch a lot of anime and one of the things I enjoyed was the language and the voice acting; the way they make the words sound. Anyway, I took a few semesters of Japanese. I love it. The characters as consistent and are just about always pronounced the same. The grammar and sentence structure is very technical and consistent. The problem is just the Kanji. There are so many. I got to go to Japan recently. It's a fantastic place. The city is massive, dense and brimming with wonderful things. I really enjoyed all the little things, too. Mostly shopping. The vending machines are virtually everywhere, dispensing warm or cold cans or bottles of coffee, tea, juice, water and beer. The cheap sushi places have better tasting fish than in the states, but that's a given. The temples scattered so you can stop by for a quick prayer. Shintoism appeals to me quite a bit. And aside from the sushi, you can get just about any kind of food if you look hard enough. Their public transportation is complex yet easy enough to figure out. It's also very fast and timely. Bikes are not locked to racks. They are simply parked, sometimes in a designated area, and the rear wheel is locked in place. The country and nature away from the city is also very beautiful. I was lucky enough to walk around Nikko while it was snowing. I could go on but I'll stop here. I absorbed a lot in the two weeks I was there.
Why is hair listed? Oh. I got a haircut recently. I quite like it. It's short but long enough to manipulate. I love making it look a bit messy. To vaguely reflect my slobbish personality. I actually like my hair a lot. It's a very dark brown but it looks black. You can only see the brown when enough light shines through the ends of the hairs. And it's thick. I've got nice, thick hair and all I use is shampoo. There's not much for me to say really. I like my hair. Other people seem to like my hair. I usually get it trimmed when it reaches down to the tip of my nose. And I have decent hair for wearing goggles. When I was little, my mom kept my hair short. Practically buzz cut. I did have a little tail in the back, though. Then she stopped getting it cut and I grew it out pretty long. Then I got it cut because I hated dealing with the tangles. Now I probably get it cut about twice a year.
Mmm... Snuggles are one of my favorite things to do. As a self-proclaimed lazy dragon, snuggling is one of the most pleasant ways to spend time with a person. You just sorta lay there, enjoying the warm touch. Body language should take over but when I'm snuggling close to someone, I often find myself constantly thinking about where my hands are and where their hands are. Or their legs. Or where their hands aren't... I guess I'm not very good at just letting my body operate. It's become my nature to try to be as aware as possible, even if I'm enjoying the closeness of another. I don't think I was like this before. Or maybe it's when I'm around new people. Plus, I almost always get aroused when I'm snuggling. And ususally, snuggling is foreplay. I feel like that might be a bad thing. And I haven't had a good snuggle since FC. It's a growing addiction now. But it's not specifically snuggling. I'm lonely. Plain and simple. I used to have what I would call a companion. Someone I could easily spend time with. Someone who would often keep me company. We don't see each other much anymore and the world seems like a much lonelier place. I guess that's why I want so badly to be close to someone. Someone who will keep me company again and distact my mind from its own insanity. Hmm...
Dwaggy. It's sounds so cute that way. I am a chubby, short dragon. I say short because many dragons are larger. Big as a car or house or small hill. I'm about 5'10" when I'm on my hind legs. I don't really have much an anthro description or picture. I'm feral.. for now. I'll post a link to a sketch of myself at the end of this. When I was 15, I had a dream. It's a little hazy but I've successful held onto it in my memory.
There was a village. There was emerging civilization and technology on this world. It may have been Earth at one point in time. The humans were growing in population. Eliminating other threatening species. It was rumored that there was only one dragon left in this world. Hiding and trying to avoid human confrontation. Clinging to it's lonely life. But you know humans. They have to kill it off completely. There were trained hunters with amazing persistence. The dragon was outside of a village where one of the youngest hunters resided. Also among the people of the village, were two regular men who felt the should do what they could to help the unfortunate creature. They found the dragon and they didn't know what to do. The dragon was female, and without many options, decided to mate with the humans. She kept hidden until many eggs were laid. It was a new species; part human, part dragon. The dragon died but her offspring lived on.
That's pretty much the gist of the dream. I like to think that, in some way, I'm one of those offspring. And shortly after that dream, I got into furry, managing to attend AnthroCon 2006 at the age of 16. And I love the fandom. So many interesting people. So many artists. And it's a very social fandom. My favorite part of a furry con is meeting people. But back to dragons. My favorite book series is probably the Inheritance Series. The adventure and magic. The violence and bloodshed. And even a little romance. When I think of dragons, I often imagine flying, firebreathing, magic and biting things. I love fire, and I like wind, but I feel more of a connection to water. Its existence fascinate me. It erodes and runs and flows so freely. It shapes to fit its surroundings. It gets absorbed, and it evaporates. It's in the clouds that float so high, being pushed by the wind. I could go on but my back is getting stiff.
So there's the meme. Just a couple parts of my personality.
Here's the picture of me: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1317021/
Here's my photo album for my Japan trip: http://photobucket.com/japan_2009
It's still not done. I have a LOT of pictures I still need to upload.
I'm gonna try to post something everyday from now on.
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Current Music: Bob Dylan - The Times They Are A-Changin'